That Moment You Realize That Your Life is a Lie

You know that moment, when you figure out something that you were so sure of your ENTIRE life is a lie? I know that I, myself have had plenty of those moments. It's that moment when you sit there in doubt of everything and just can't really talk about it, and you never seem to get a grasp of it. 

Here are a few examples;

• When you figure out that the notches on a toaster stand for minutes, not level of toastiness. 
• When you find out that you have been using bobby pins incorrectly for literally your entire life

• When you discover that they don't lay individual bricks into the sidewalk.

• When you find out "No Tears" shampoo wasn't to prevent kids from crying, it's to prevent tangles. (Yeah, I know.. all those pain-filled moments of having shampoo in your eyeballs that was a false promise from a bottle wasn't actually a lie)
• THIS. THOSE LAZY BUTT HEADS IN DEPARTMENT STORES DON'T EVEN FOLD THEIR TOWELS, NO. BUT THEY LIE TO EVERYONE ABOUT THEIR PERFECT APPEARANCE. 
  
• When you find out Nutella is pronounced "new-tell-uh" not "nu-tell-uh". Don't believe me? Go to the Nutella FAQ page. You will be as thoroughly disappointed as I. 
• When you see all your friends pictures from meeting the Weasley twins at ComiCon, and THEY AREN'T ACTUALLY RED HEADS. 
• Footlongs from Subway aren't actually a foot long. 
• WHEN BUFFALO WILD WINGS DOESN'T ACTUALLY GIVE YOU A SPECIFIC NUMBER OF WINGS, IT'S ACTUALLY DONE BY WEIGHT. 
• When you find out the proper multiple of Octopus is Octopodes, not Octopi.
• When you figure out baby carrots are actually just cut out of big carrots, like.... why?

I am very sure that most of you knew these things, and I am sure I will think of more, but I just felt it was necesary for everyone to know my thought crippling moments of finding out my life is a whole lie.  

xx Mishea

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Feeling Adult-ish

There is something about ordering delivery for Chinese food that makes you feel like a adult with a studio apartment in New York. There is also another whole feeling of being an adult as you sit in a dark apartment, lit with candles, the light of your TV, and laptop screen while you write a blog post about being an adult a month after your 20th birthday. 

Then you realize that you are happy where you are, sitting in your living room eating chinese food, with a face mask from lush on, and waiting for the candle-lit bath you might have in an hour or two. While you're writing a post for your blog, and catching up on your favorite youtubers, thinking about the next chapter in the book you are halfway through. 

When you think about one of your best friends from high school coming home in 2 days after being gone for a year and a half, and you realize you have almost been graduated for 2 years, and you're making your way through college having experiences that you didn't even know were real while you were working for that diploma. That's when you realize that time really does move fast, just like all the adults in your life told you. 

And when you write this blog post about being an adult, living on your own, working your way through college, and figuring out how to avoid the winter that is bound to happen, that's when you realize that you are an adult. And you will get excited about interesting things. 

Then you write a list of all the things that you get as an adult, warning those who aren't adults yet. 

• You will get excited about a shelf that you put in your shower, moving the clutter from the edges of the tub. 
• You're going to get excited about a well planned out meal, not one made from pre-made frozen food. 
• There is something exhilarating about entering a clean apartment that you slaved over the day before. 
• When you have freshly cleaned sheets, that is one of the best feelings ever. 
• Cleaning out a drawer that somehow became a junk drawer is fun, its actually FUN.
• When you walk on newly vacuumed carpet, your feet are walking on clouds. 
• Staying in bed rather than cleaning your dishes makes you feel guilty. 
• Clean clothes are a god-sent. 

I know it's a short and boring one, but I am trying to write more often. There will be more interesting posts to come, promise. 

xx Mishea

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Love Test: Choose Love

If you don't already know what I am writing about by just reading the title, watch this:

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F9JrNEHj558

When I first watched this video, it was an ad on YouTube, and I wanted to skip though it but something kept me watching. I didn't think much of it when the video was over, but the second time I watched it, it stuck with me. And I decided to do it, not for my relationships with anyone else, but just with myself. 

I am now a whole week into the Love Test and I honestly couldn't be happier with the results that I have come across. I have set apart time every morning to get ready [(Doing my hair and makeup, and picking a cute outfit) The only exception was the day I had my makeup class which I have decided are my makeup-free days, or a natural day.] I've also taken time each morning to clean my face, and give myself a little pamper, which I have never done continuously before. And on my days off, I have taken time to do things I used to love to do that I haven't made time for in a long time. 

Like right now I am sitting on the porch to my apartment (which is currently home to an old desk and coffee table) and drinking one of the best hot chocolates I have had in a while, catching up on some reading, and writing blog posts whilst wearing fluffy socks and a cozy cardigan. 

I know what you're thinking, "What if I don't want to do a full face of makeup everyday, or do my hair all fancy everyday?" well simple answer is, you don't. Today I only put one eye shadow on, and mascara, because I'm not going anywhere so why would I need a full face of makeup? For me, makeup makes me feel empowered, it's not necessarily to impress anyone. It's just there to make me feel like I am ready to take on the day whatever comes my way.  

Throughout this week I have also done other little things to make me feel better and help me love myself a little bit more. I took time to clean my apartment bit by bit as needed, gave myself a manicure, put on a face mask for a pamper session, organized and got rid of makeup that has past shelf life or I just don't use or need anymore, decorated the apartment a little, and I caught up on my homework (slowly but surely). And this next week I am going to get rid of old clothes I don't wear anymore, and I am going to deep clean and organize the place to make it feel less cluttered before winter comes. 

The Love Test has given me a whole new sense of confidence, I know now that I am one of the cutest things to walk the earth (in my own humble opinion, haha) and I can honestly say that I look at myself every morning and tell myself that I am beautiful and deserving of great things, because I am and I do. 

I suggest you take time to do the Love Test, whether it's to better your relationship with a significant other, or with yourself. It's a heartwarming experience and it's well worth the time and effort that you put into yourself. If this works for you, let me know what positive outcomes you receive, I would love to read them.

Love your beautiful self, because if you don't who will?

xx Mishea

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